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Late Nite Blues

Around this time is what you call night
Around this time, these tears I try to fight
I wait and wait, till no ones in sight
To pour out this emotion of life being un-right
Each tear is followed by fear
I tightly cover my mouth so no one can hear
The sniffles of my runny noes, & the big gasp of air
So many people to call friends, but no one is there
If they were, would they dare, to care?.....
Ears filled with water, its a mini lake
Wonder how many more nights like this can I take
Endurance is running short on fuel
Cant compare this to Real World's Duel
But is a competition between day & night
Pondering if my mind will ever rest before sun light
Wishing to go back to counting ones & two's
This is just part 1, of the late night blues

Friend§

Been a while since I posted. Have so much on my mind but can't really get it out all at once. Summer is right around the corner and I think my life will slowly be where I want it to be. I've eliminated bad,negative, and fake people from my lives.So hopefully things can only go up from here. Let us praY :-)

FEEL FREE

OVER THE PAST YEAR I'VE LEARNED ALOT. I'VE MADE MISTAKE AFTER MISTAKE AND LEARNED FROM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I NOW FEEL FREE & BORN AGAIN INTO THE GIRL I USED TO BE, AND THE WOMAN I'VE BECOME. NO ONE CAN STOP ME NOW. I FEEL FREE!!!

HearT BeaT

When you feel my heartbeat,you feel a repetitve tone
This beat you feel is similar to a sad song
My heart no longer beats blood, but tears
Saddened over losing a friend of 4 years
This heartbeat is dwindling and weak
Stressed,confused,just doesn't know what to think
This heartbeat is no longer fearless,but scared
Needed a shoulder but friend wasn't there
This heartbeat used to be passionate and strong
But life destroyed it, I don't know if it will last long

Raped.....

I was raped of my heart and soul
Now all I love is money & gold
I was raped of my feelings
Now I only feel the that liquor that burns my heart
I was raped of my dignity
Now...no one cares for me
I was raped of my spirit
Now I'm a walking ghost
I was raped of my pride
Now I no longer laugh...but cry
I was raped,I was raped,I was raped
Now that's all I remember from 2008
I was raped of my heart & soul
Now all that's left is this girl....and she's so cold.

IF....

If you only knew what I've been thru you would feel remorse. If you only knew how many nights I cried you'd love me unconditionally. If you only knew how terrified I was, you would hold tight and protect me all thru the night.If you only knew how much it hurt you would send me flowers just to cheer me up. If you only knew,how much you did'nt know. But its far too late now I had to let you go. If you only knew what I've been thru you'd feel sorry for me, and that's wat I despise and that's why you would never know.

Wat She Wants

A girl who never gets what she wants.In search for nothin but peace and happiness but that was far to much to ask for. Wanted to live happily ever after with this love, but she never gets what wants. Growing up she didn't have everything, constantly asking mommy or daddy can I have this can I have that, but she never got what she want. Always remained hopefull and faithful, believed that one day if she was really meant to have that she would get it. If she was really meant to have love, love would come to her. She found what she wanted, but couldn't keep what she wanted. Guess she got used to not gettin what she wanted. Whenever something good was given to her, it was just too good to be true she new it had to come to an end soon love. And now all she wants is herself love. All she wants is too love herself the way no one ever has. All she wants is to no longer cry at night, she wants to be able to lye her head on her pillow and fall into a deep peaceful sleep. All she ever wanted was love and happiness, she never found it in a companion so she now finds it within.