IF....

If you only knew what I've been thru you would feel remorse. If you only knew how many nights I cried you'd love me unconditionally. If you only knew how terrified I was, you would hold tight and protect me all thru the night.If you only knew how much it hurt you would send me flowers just to cheer me up. If you only knew,how much you did'nt know. But its far too late now I had to let you go. If you only knew what I've been thru you'd feel sorry for me, and that's wat I despise and that's why you would never know.

Wat She Wants

A girl who never gets what she wants.In search for nothin but peace and happiness but that was far to much to ask for. Wanted to live happily ever after with this love, but she never gets what wants. Growing up she didn't have everything, constantly asking mommy or daddy can I have this can I have that, but she never got what she want. Always remained hopefull and faithful, believed that one day if she was really meant to have that she would get it. If she was really meant to have love, love would come to her. She found what she wanted, but couldn't keep what she wanted. Guess she got used to not gettin what she wanted. Whenever something good was given to her, it was just too good to be true she new it had to come to an end soon love. And now all she wants is herself love. All she wants is too love herself the way no one ever has. All she wants is to no longer cry at night, she wants to be able to lye her head on her pillow and fall into a deep peaceful sleep. All she ever wanted was love and happiness, she never found it in a companion so she now finds it within.